Journey of Faith 9/17

I know I have probably been lacking on here and I am working on improving that along with lot of other items in my life. I had to take some time and refocus and try to figure out where am I at, what I need to do, where to go and long term plans. For 3yrs I have been battling to keep my family together and to keep the home that we have on top of dealing with my rehab it has been a long harsh battle and I can honestly say for the first time in 3yrs I can say there is nothing more to do and can start on focusing on the now. I don't know how long I have which is true none of us knows for sure though for me I am on borrow time. I may have minutes, days or years that I can't say. So for all my readers out there join me in a new journey-Borrowed Time.

I would like you as a reader to join me grab a notebook and start writing. My first challenge for all my readers take one family member and write down what characteristics they have, what you like, memories...this is a document that those love ones can cherish when you aren't there.

For me I choose my other half, my adorable husband-Scott. After 10yrs of marriage and especially the last 3yrs...I know I would of given up several times. It hasn't been a piece of cake just keeping him in the country has been a challenge. He has always been there doing things that I can't now, working, taking care of our girl and best of all listening. I know he is trying and I love him dearly for it even with his issues from the accident.

One memory which I will share has become a joke between us especially lately, we were living in Canada at the time and only been married for about a year, we had a bed frame that was bigger then our mattress, so board slates held it up. This one particular night we just crawled in bed and fell in a deep sleep, Then about 1am WHAM the whole mini home shook and rattled, the boards that held the mattress up broke and down we went, just laying there listening to glass break and until everything sort of settled. Half a sleep we fly out bed, tripping over items, everything that was on the walls, in cabinets, on shelves, where all over the floor , grabbing shoes and flashlights to investigate, what happened. We go walking around the mini home in the dead of night and guess what there is a HUGE Dent in the side of our mini home.

Swinging our flashlights around we picked up a glow off in the woods and upon further investigation, we discovered the neighbors homemade liquor stash and also discovered that a big moose got into it. Yep, that is what hit our home was a Drunk Moose. Needless to say try explaining that to the in laws or the guy that had to reset our home back on the foundation. I informed my hubby that I like getting close enough to see wild life though not this close. So from that day on our pray is Lord if you need to shake us up let it not be a drunk moose and you know he hasn't though he has found many ways since to shake us. I felt like that drunk moose for the past 3yrs just wandering, swaying and aimless going around though I realized that even if we waver there is always a way back on track, God has shown this to me many, many times in the last few days and years.

It isn't what your are going through though how are you handling it. What are you facing that you forgot where your focus should be?

You were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord.

— Ephesians 5:8 (NIV)